you know, for me, things always end up easier than i anticipate they will be. i'm sure, for some people it's the opposite, but in a way, i kind of like that it goes like that.
i am getting the feeling that this nursing thing may be just like that. in that, right now, it's feeling very overwhelming and almost stifling, but i'd like to be so excited...i could burst. the financial part of my brain has kind of been put at ease. going to a community college will save a bazillion dollars, so that kind of answers that question. i was kind of all up in a tizzy also because, MY GOD, these schools have wait times. but, after reviewing, i find that there are some pre-req courses that i need to take regardless and that wait time will give me plenty of time to do that, and not all in rush, as i'm known for doing.
really now, the only thing i'm stressing about is time. time that i will not have because i'll now be learning a skill set of which i have NO knowledge. through this, i realized, i'm not good at, or do i ever want to be, mediocre. i want to be at the top of my class, i want to have hours on end through the day to learn as much as i can, like i did in my first run in grad school. but it's not going to be that way. i have responsibilities now that i didn't have then. (SOB). it set in that, when you're old and creepy and the real estate market hasn't gone the way that you had wanted.... well, that's not reality. ;) (i'm joking about the old and creepy part).
i will need to work, likely full-time, just like i did with my other degree. after the whole cancer incident, i quit school...in great part to the fact that the docs couldn't give me any real reason of why it had spread so fast...other than "maybe stress". but, i think that part of the stress in my head at that time (or at least this is what I tell myself) is that i knew i had 7 or 8 years of that stress ahead of me. this time, i'll only have 18 months or so.
i can handle that!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
anyone have an extra, oh...$8,000 and some time on their hands to lend me? ;)
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anyone have an extra, oh...$8,000 and some time on their hands to lend me? ;)
you know, for me, things always end up easier than i anticipate they will be. i'm sure, for some people it's the opposite, but in a way, i kind of like that it goes like that.
i am getting the feeling that this nursing thing may be just like that. in that, right now, it's feeling very overwhelming and almost stifling, but i'd like to be so excited...i could burst. the financial part of my brain has kind of been put at ease. going to a community college will save a bazillion dollars, so that kind of answers that question. i was kind of all up in a tizzy also because, MY GOD, these schools have wait times. but, after reviewing, i find that there are some pre-req courses that i need to take regardless and that wait time will give me plenty of time to do that, and not all in rush, as i'm known for doing.
really now, the only thing i'm stressing about is time. time that i will not have because i'll now be learning a skill set of which i have NO knowledge. through this, i realized, i'm not good at, or do i ever want to be, mediocre. i want to be at the top of my class, i want to have hours on end through the day to learn as much as i can, like i did in my first run in grad school. but it's not going to be that way. i have responsibilities now that i didn't have then. (SOB). it set in that, when you're old and creepy and the real estate market hasn't gone the way that you had wanted.... well, that's not reality. ;) (i'm joking about the old and creepy part).
i will need to work, likely full-time, just like i did with my other degree. after the whole cancer incident, i quit school...in great part to the fact that the docs couldn't give me any real reason of why it had spread so fast...other than "maybe stress". but, i think that part of the stress in my head at that time (or at least this is what I tell myself) is that i knew i had 7 or 8 years of that stress ahead of me. this time, i'll only have 18 months or so.
i can handle that!
i am getting the feeling that this nursing thing may be just like that. in that, right now, it's feeling very overwhelming and almost stifling, but i'd like to be so excited...i could burst. the financial part of my brain has kind of been put at ease. going to a community college will save a bazillion dollars, so that kind of answers that question. i was kind of all up in a tizzy also because, MY GOD, these schools have wait times. but, after reviewing, i find that there are some pre-req courses that i need to take regardless and that wait time will give me plenty of time to do that, and not all in rush, as i'm known for doing.
really now, the only thing i'm stressing about is time. time that i will not have because i'll now be learning a skill set of which i have NO knowledge. through this, i realized, i'm not good at, or do i ever want to be, mediocre. i want to be at the top of my class, i want to have hours on end through the day to learn as much as i can, like i did in my first run in grad school. but it's not going to be that way. i have responsibilities now that i didn't have then. (SOB). it set in that, when you're old and creepy and the real estate market hasn't gone the way that you had wanted.... well, that's not reality. ;) (i'm joking about the old and creepy part).
i will need to work, likely full-time, just like i did with my other degree. after the whole cancer incident, i quit school...in great part to the fact that the docs couldn't give me any real reason of why it had spread so fast...other than "maybe stress". but, i think that part of the stress in my head at that time (or at least this is what I tell myself) is that i knew i had 7 or 8 years of that stress ahead of me. this time, i'll only have 18 months or so.
i can handle that!
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