what a week...it's been busy at work, i've been dealing with someone who is very persistant, and on top of it, seems to have memory problems. so, he forgets that he has been persistant, and then 10 minutes later, calls and is persistant again. that's all i'll say about it, other than, it's annoying. i've threatened my dad with the thought of me buying this person a one-way ticket to where my dad is and letting him deal with this person.
secondly, one of my closest friends from college had a baby. there are some beautiful pictures that i have, but of course, won't post them due to her privacy...but HOLY COW, she is a cute baby. i'm so happy for these two parents. this wasn't necessarily an expected timing for the pregnancy, but they both really stepped up and did amazingly well at taking things in stride and really, made it look easy.
i was so happy for them, loved hearing my friend's voice, still groggy sounding from the c-section. i got teary when i heard that when the hospital staff told her to bring something homey to the hospital to make her feel better, she chose to bring the blanket i crocheted her. then, i lost it when i saw the picture of the baby wrapped in the blanket. i remember when i started on the blanket (adult sized), t asked if any one could really appreciate all of the work that goes into that...i told him that this friend would....i was sure of it.
this also struck a chord with me this week, and i found myself really feeling "inward", if that makes any sense. i didn't know what it was...and then it hit me. this was the last of my long-time friends (more than 15 years), that didn't have a baby, that now does. do i think that this means that i want a kid now? no. but it really is a lonely feeling in some ways.
we don't know what we are going to do about kids. i think, more times than not, that it is something that i want...but just not in the situation that we are in now. t is busy with work, it doesn't look like that is going to slow down, and really, it would be a matter of me being a single parent, in all reality. i look back and think of what i thought when i was single and not planning on being married again....i think that i seriously thought in my head that i would adopt at some point and be a single parent. who knows how feasible that was, but i'm all about options. i hate it when options are cut out of my life....it's not necessarily that i would chose a certain decision...but i like for the opportunity to be there. the other issue is that i'm somewhat Type A. i like lists, piles, organizing my life. i should know by now that things don't turn out the way that you usually think they will, especially with your life. but as anyone that knows me knows....i do not like unknowns.
maybe in the next few years there will be a hypo allergenic cat that comes out....i'm kidding...i don't want to get hate mail about how i compared a child to a cat. really...i was kidding.
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what a week...it's been busy at work, i've been dealing with someone who is very persistant, and on top of it, seems to have memory problems. so, he forgets that he has been persistant, and then 10 minutes later, calls and is persistant again. that's all i'll say about it, other than, it's annoying. i've threatened my dad with the thought of me buying this person a one-way ticket to where my dad is and letting him deal with this person.
secondly, one of my closest friends from college had a baby. there are some beautiful pictures that i have, but of course, won't post them due to her privacy...but HOLY COW, she is a cute baby. i'm so happy for these two parents. this wasn't necessarily an expected timing for the pregnancy, but they both really stepped up and did amazingly well at taking things in stride and really, made it look easy.
i was so happy for them, loved hearing my friend's voice, still groggy sounding from the c-section. i got teary when i heard that when the hospital staff told her to bring something homey to the hospital to make her feel better, she chose to bring the blanket i crocheted her. then, i lost it when i saw the picture of the baby wrapped in the blanket. i remember when i started on the blanket (adult sized), t asked if any one could really appreciate all of the work that goes into that...i told him that this friend would....i was sure of it.
this also struck a chord with me this week, and i found myself really feeling "inward", if that makes any sense. i didn't know what it was...and then it hit me. this was the last of my long-time friends (more than 15 years), that didn't have a baby, that now does. do i think that this means that i want a kid now? no. but it really is a lonely feeling in some ways.
we don't know what we are going to do about kids. i think, more times than not, that it is something that i want...but just not in the situation that we are in now. t is busy with work, it doesn't look like that is going to slow down, and really, it would be a matter of me being a single parent, in all reality. i look back and think of what i thought when i was single and not planning on being married again....i think that i seriously thought in my head that i would adopt at some point and be a single parent. who knows how feasible that was, but i'm all about options. i hate it when options are cut out of my life....it's not necessarily that i would chose a certain decision...but i like for the opportunity to be there. the other issue is that i'm somewhat Type A. i like lists, piles, organizing my life. i should know by now that things don't turn out the way that you usually think they will, especially with your life. but as anyone that knows me knows....i do not like unknowns.
maybe in the next few years there will be a hypo allergenic cat that comes out....i'm kidding...i don't want to get hate mail about how i compared a child to a cat. really...i was kidding.
secondly, one of my closest friends from college had a baby. there are some beautiful pictures that i have, but of course, won't post them due to her privacy...but HOLY COW, she is a cute baby. i'm so happy for these two parents. this wasn't necessarily an expected timing for the pregnancy, but they both really stepped up and did amazingly well at taking things in stride and really, made it look easy.
i was so happy for them, loved hearing my friend's voice, still groggy sounding from the c-section. i got teary when i heard that when the hospital staff told her to bring something homey to the hospital to make her feel better, she chose to bring the blanket i crocheted her. then, i lost it when i saw the picture of the baby wrapped in the blanket. i remember when i started on the blanket (adult sized), t asked if any one could really appreciate all of the work that goes into that...i told him that this friend would....i was sure of it.
this also struck a chord with me this week, and i found myself really feeling "inward", if that makes any sense. i didn't know what it was...and then it hit me. this was the last of my long-time friends (more than 15 years), that didn't have a baby, that now does. do i think that this means that i want a kid now? no. but it really is a lonely feeling in some ways.
we don't know what we are going to do about kids. i think, more times than not, that it is something that i want...but just not in the situation that we are in now. t is busy with work, it doesn't look like that is going to slow down, and really, it would be a matter of me being a single parent, in all reality. i look back and think of what i thought when i was single and not planning on being married again....i think that i seriously thought in my head that i would adopt at some point and be a single parent. who knows how feasible that was, but i'm all about options. i hate it when options are cut out of my life....it's not necessarily that i would chose a certain decision...but i like for the opportunity to be there. the other issue is that i'm somewhat Type A. i like lists, piles, organizing my life. i should know by now that things don't turn out the way that you usually think they will, especially with your life. but as anyone that knows me knows....i do not like unknowns.
maybe in the next few years there will be a hypo allergenic cat that comes out....i'm kidding...i don't want to get hate mail about how i compared a child to a cat. really...i was kidding.
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Well. You know how I feel about this. It's a lot of work on the inside to make sense of how you feel about it. Right? Stupid work. But in the meantime, there's babies to love.
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February 12, 2010 at 7:04 AM
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I think options are a good thing. They allow you to become a parent if and when you choose ... without letting biology and clocks be the only determining factor for you. I like that you're thinking about it - it means whatever decision you make won't be rash.
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February 12, 2010 at 12:20 PM
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Well. You know how I feel about this. It's a lot of work on the inside to make sense of how you feel about it. Right? Stupid work. But in the meantime, there's babies to love.
I think options are a good thing. They allow you to become a parent if and when you choose ... without letting biology and clocks be the only determining factor for you. I like that you're thinking about it - it means whatever decision you make won't be rash.
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