i went to the doc that i was labeling as "old school" and what i found is that, that statement, in fact, was true. however, what i also found out, is that old school can be good. he is much more traditional in treatment and in reality, gave me more news that sounded a lot scarier than what i had started with. BUT, that being said...he was so much more honest, open, and explanitory than any other person had been as well.
doing surgery on the 21st and while it will remove some of the "stuff" there, they will then biopsy it some more and see how far it has spread. so, you know, just good things to know.
while i feel much better about this, my stress level in my body is rising the closer this gets. i don't think it's that i am so nervous about the procedure itself...but we'll see when the time gets closer.
in the meantime, i have a fabulous weekend filled with holiday-like activities and pretty much anything i haven't gotten around to in the past 5 months.
people are like, "why are you continuing to do this if it makes you that unhappy?" i have a couple of reasons...not excuses, mind you, but REASONS.
1. i was a spoiled brat and didn't work throughout college and my first round of grad school. i will say however, that i don't know that this would have mattered. it is very different to be delivering pizzas or working at dillards (not saying anything bad about those jobs), than it is having to be 106% present everyday and to have to keep on top of contracts, homes, buildings, etc. and hope that nothing falls through the cracks....i've found THIS also to be a little stress provoking.
2. i am hoping that the fact that i had the same teacher for all of my classes, plus my GA has something to do with it. nothing at all against her, in fact, i really like her, but it does something to your head when you are supposed to be getting a "worldly" view of psychology and it's coming from one professor that in reality, has not ever practiced in the field that you are speaking of.
those are the only things that i can think of. so deal
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It would drive me batty if I had the same professor all the time. And old school is good when it comes to doctors. I work for one. Ha!
Hey - I heard a quote...something like, "If you're going through hell, don't stop, keep going." This too shall pass, you get through it!
It's the 21st and we just chatted. In case you were doped up, just wanted you to know that I'm gald you still have your sense of humor and that you're doing OK! You'll be up in no time.
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