i talked about change earlier....what is hard is when change is very unwanted.
we have this "changing" time a lot in my family around this time of year.
it very rarely is the good kind.
case in point:
my paternal grandmother died in 1999 on Halloween night
my maternal grandfather died in 2000 in september
my maternal uncle died in september in 2003
my paternal grandfather died in december 2006
my dad got sick in the fall of 2007.
my uncle george, who is my grandpa's brother and is 90...yes, 90, has fallen ill. you would think by now, our family would run and hide when the leaves started changing..but we are still optimistic. this is still my favorite time of year. and no matter what it always will be. we are hopeful that we will have so much more to look foward to in the fall. i know we will....no matter what happens. I just wish my family members strength through this time. it is scary and sad when someone is sick. i know. and you would love to tell people that it's o.k. and "you'll get over the pain".
but sometimes, sometimes the losses that we are hit with, are just too much.
i never in a million years thought that i would think about someone every day that had left us. until my grandpa did.
i would love to say that in my head, that i got over it, and that i think fondly back everyday thinking about the times we had together, but i've come to realize now, that sometimes, there might be people who you don't "get over". sometimes people are such a moving force to your lives, that you cannot get over them and everything around you and that you are made of...is about them.
thank god for that.
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when you don't want things to change
i talked about change earlier....what is hard is when change is very unwanted.
we have this "changing" time a lot in my family around this time of year.
it very rarely is the good kind.
case in point:
my paternal grandmother died in 1999 on Halloween night
my maternal grandfather died in 2000 in september
my maternal uncle died in september in 2003
my paternal grandfather died in december 2006
my dad got sick in the fall of 2007.
my uncle george, who is my grandpa's brother and is 90...yes, 90, has fallen ill. you would think by now, our family would run and hide when the leaves started changing..but we are still optimistic. this is still my favorite time of year. and no matter what it always will be. we are hopeful that we will have so much more to look foward to in the fall. i know we will....no matter what happens. I just wish my family members strength through this time. it is scary and sad when someone is sick. i know. and you would love to tell people that it's o.k. and "you'll get over the pain".
but sometimes, sometimes the losses that we are hit with, are just too much.
i never in a million years thought that i would think about someone every day that had left us. until my grandpa did.
i would love to say that in my head, that i got over it, and that i think fondly back everyday thinking about the times we had together, but i've come to realize now, that sometimes, there might be people who you don't "get over". sometimes people are such a moving force to your lives, that you cannot get over them and everything around you and that you are made of...is about them.
thank god for that.
we have this "changing" time a lot in my family around this time of year.
it very rarely is the good kind.
case in point:
my paternal grandmother died in 1999 on Halloween night
my maternal grandfather died in 2000 in september
my maternal uncle died in september in 2003
my paternal grandfather died in december 2006
my dad got sick in the fall of 2007.
my uncle george, who is my grandpa's brother and is 90...yes, 90, has fallen ill. you would think by now, our family would run and hide when the leaves started changing..but we are still optimistic. this is still my favorite time of year. and no matter what it always will be. we are hopeful that we will have so much more to look foward to in the fall. i know we will....no matter what happens. I just wish my family members strength through this time. it is scary and sad when someone is sick. i know. and you would love to tell people that it's o.k. and "you'll get over the pain".
but sometimes, sometimes the losses that we are hit with, are just too much.
i never in a million years thought that i would think about someone every day that had left us. until my grandpa did.
i would love to say that in my head, that i got over it, and that i think fondly back everyday thinking about the times we had together, but i've come to realize now, that sometimes, there might be people who you don't "get over". sometimes people are such a moving force to your lives, that you cannot get over them and everything around you and that you are made of...is about them.
thank god for that.
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I always say life is fluid. And the minute things calm down is the minute when they're beginning to heat back up again. Because really, nothing ever stays the same. No matter what happens or what time of year it happens, I hope your family is able to stick together. Through good times and bad.
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October 27, 2009 at 8:20 AM
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I always say life is fluid. And the minute things calm down is the minute when they're beginning to heat back up again. Because really, nothing ever stays the same. No matter what happens or what time of year it happens, I hope your family is able to stick together. Through good times and bad.
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