some might say that I've asked for this by taking on a grad degree while working and not just working here or there and having to be present...but working and having to be good at it.
i started to get this degree so that 1. i could work in the schools and make enough money to do so and live with food and shelter 2. to do something that i really thought that i'd like 3. to eventually take pressure off of myself
what has happened has been tragic, at the very least. i found myself wondering at the very beginning, "wow, how will i get through 3 years of this?" and now i wonder, "wow, how will i get through the rest of the month of this?"
i pin it mostly on one, changed around, disorganized, ridiculousness of a class. i have one class on monday and one on tuesday. my other class for the semester, is actually a class that is held...only on two weekends throughout the semester and only for Friday and Saturday from 9-4pm. SUPPOSEDLY. these dates for this class were scheduled when we scheduled ourselves, so in a nutshell, we knew when we were taking classes. two weeks into the semester, however, the instructor comes to one of our other classes and says something to the effect of "oops, i messed up, i scheduled your class when i have another to teach, we will then move it to the most ridiculously inconvenient weekends that it possilbly could be so that we can F*%& up your life". or something like that.
hence, it was then scheduled for the weekend that i was to be gone in Duluth. then, the second round was then going to be the weekend before our midterm.
i understand being flexible, i really do. i can leave work at a moment's notice to do things with school...really, i can. but what i cannot do is make more hours in my days. and this, as i see it, is the problem.
because of this backlog of items in the agenda now, for the next week, i need to 1. write a paper by tuesday 2. study for my midterm, since i will be in class all next weekend. 2. put together an organizational study 3. study statistics 4. work 40 hours 5. give hi fives to t as we pass each other in the darkness of morning. did I forget something?
it all came to a head as t was frustrated that i have been very absent lately and he never sees me. part of this is my study habits. it's hard for me and always has been, to sit in a chair and study. torturous, some might call it. but, on the flip side, it is this habit that takes me away from studying in the office where he works. so, that will be fixed. though this is nice to have an easy fix to this issue...it does nothing for my need to add some extra hours in my days.
off kilter
some might say that I've asked for this by taking on a grad degree while working and not just working here or there and having to be present...but working and having to be good at it.
i started to get this degree so that 1. i could work in the schools and make enough money to do so and live with food and shelter 2. to do something that i really thought that i'd like 3. to eventually take pressure off of myself
what has happened has been tragic, at the very least. i found myself wondering at the very beginning, "wow, how will i get through 3 years of this?" and now i wonder, "wow, how will i get through the rest of the month of this?"
i pin it mostly on one, changed around, disorganized, ridiculousness of a class. i have one class on monday and one on tuesday. my other class for the semester, is actually a class that is held...only on two weekends throughout the semester and only for Friday and Saturday from 9-4pm. SUPPOSEDLY. these dates for this class were scheduled when we scheduled ourselves, so in a nutshell, we knew when we were taking classes. two weeks into the semester, however, the instructor comes to one of our other classes and says something to the effect of "oops, i messed up, i scheduled your class when i have another to teach, we will then move it to the most ridiculously inconvenient weekends that it possilbly could be so that we can F*%& up your life". or something like that.
hence, it was then scheduled for the weekend that i was to be gone in Duluth. then, the second round was then going to be the weekend before our midterm.
i understand being flexible, i really do. i can leave work at a moment's notice to do things with school...really, i can. but what i cannot do is make more hours in my days. and this, as i see it, is the problem.
because of this backlog of items in the agenda now, for the next week, i need to 1. write a paper by tuesday 2. study for my midterm, since i will be in class all next weekend. 2. put together an organizational study 3. study statistics 4. work 40 hours 5. give hi fives to t as we pass each other in the darkness of morning. did I forget something?
it all came to a head as t was frustrated that i have been very absent lately and he never sees me. part of this is my study habits. it's hard for me and always has been, to sit in a chair and study. torturous, some might call it. but, on the flip side, it is this habit that takes me away from studying in the office where he works. so, that will be fixed. though this is nice to have an easy fix to this issue...it does nothing for my need to add some extra hours in my days.
i started to get this degree so that 1. i could work in the schools and make enough money to do so and live with food and shelter 2. to do something that i really thought that i'd like 3. to eventually take pressure off of myself
what has happened has been tragic, at the very least. i found myself wondering at the very beginning, "wow, how will i get through 3 years of this?" and now i wonder, "wow, how will i get through the rest of the month of this?"
i pin it mostly on one, changed around, disorganized, ridiculousness of a class. i have one class on monday and one on tuesday. my other class for the semester, is actually a class that is held...only on two weekends throughout the semester and only for Friday and Saturday from 9-4pm. SUPPOSEDLY. these dates for this class were scheduled when we scheduled ourselves, so in a nutshell, we knew when we were taking classes. two weeks into the semester, however, the instructor comes to one of our other classes and says something to the effect of "oops, i messed up, i scheduled your class when i have another to teach, we will then move it to the most ridiculously inconvenient weekends that it possilbly could be so that we can F*%& up your life". or something like that.
hence, it was then scheduled for the weekend that i was to be gone in Duluth. then, the second round was then going to be the weekend before our midterm.
i understand being flexible, i really do. i can leave work at a moment's notice to do things with school...really, i can. but what i cannot do is make more hours in my days. and this, as i see it, is the problem.
because of this backlog of items in the agenda now, for the next week, i need to 1. write a paper by tuesday 2. study for my midterm, since i will be in class all next weekend. 2. put together an organizational study 3. study statistics 4. work 40 hours 5. give hi fives to t as we pass each other in the darkness of morning. did I forget something?
it all came to a head as t was frustrated that i have been very absent lately and he never sees me. part of this is my study habits. it's hard for me and always has been, to sit in a chair and study. torturous, some might call it. but, on the flip side, it is this habit that takes me away from studying in the office where he works. so, that will be fixed. though this is nice to have an easy fix to this issue...it does nothing for my need to add some extra hours in my days.
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Stop and breathe for a second. And everytime you get frustrated remember the goal and how great you'll feel when it's all done :O)
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October 10, 2009 at 8:25 PM
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Stop and breathe for a second. And everytime you get frustrated remember the goal and how great you'll feel when it's all done :O)
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