and so it goes

i've been writing this post in my head for at least 100 hours now.  for some reason, it seems hard to put down into thoughts. 

My trip....

here it is, in no particular order:

1.  Saw my friend, J.  He is a hip, single guy living the dream in Dallas.  (o.k., j, i don't know if you think you are living the dream or not, but some people would saw that being single is living the dream).  we caught up on life and what was going on, it was a good time.

2.  bought a miche purse. if you haven't seen these and have a penchant for liking a lot of change in your life, this is for you.  go to miche to see the real gist of it.  the long and short of it is that it's a bag, that has many covers that you can switch out as many times as your heart desires.  i love change...so this is  good for me!

3.  ate good french food. 

4.  has frozen yogurt at Pinkberry for lunch.  I'm an adult and i can do these things.  I had the original flavor with mochi and carob chips on it. 

5. had a not very relaxing massage by a woman at a chain massage place.  I almost would have ventured to say that maybe she just had "different" technique than other people?  but no...this wasn't the case.  She almost dislocated body parts as she flung my limbs around carelessly.  oh, and her cell phone rang during the massage.

6.  i drove to tyler, tx.  you may ask why....but it really is a great place.  it is known for it's roses and azeleas.  and when i saw that it's known for it, these texans take these things VERY seriously.  homes were COVERED in the things.  i know...you want pictures...but that's too bad, because i was so busy looking at these things, i forgot to take pictures. 

7.  while in tyler, i saw my grad school roommate.  to date, still one of the coolest girls i've ever met.  we moved in with each other in Austin and literally said, "we don't have to be best friends, or even friends, for that matter..."  YEAH, RIGHT!  life sure had changed for both of us....she used to be the messiest, non-domesticated person that i know.  she is so put together now, is married, with two kids....it left me speechless.  she is still wonderful and it made me miss that friendship, as it's probably the closest one that i've had to someone that lived in the same town as me, much less in the same house. 

8.  met up with college friends, Sean and Chelle, at benihana.  they are the ones that have the little boy Carter, whom i've posted about before.    i don't know how to put words to this couple.  Sean and Chelle have been in such a position of despair, loving, and i'm sure sheer terror at times in their lives together.  long story short (you can read the rest at his webpage), carter had a number of complications at birth that eventually led to a 5 organ transplant.  there are many ironys to this situation.  you have never, in your life, seen more dedicated, mama and papa bear parents than these two.  throughout many times, they have probably not thought that they would be standing there with their son today.  but they are.  sean lost his job a while back....but they are making it.  they are in the hospital WAY more than they are out and still they deal with probing hands of people being nosy, wanting to touch their child, and being insensitive.  out of any of the couples that hung out together in college, they are the only ones that are still together and obviously should be.  it was humbling to be around them and to see that they maintain a sense of who they are, even though they are in this situation

9.  i was supposed to see my friend, r.  r was my boyfriend throughout much of college, but i much rather think of him as my friend...he helped me through a lot of life.  he was the one that called my parents when he thought my exercising and lack of eating was out of control, he was the one that drove me to colorado so that my parents could see what was going on...he was a very good person.  after i went through that summer of treatment, i did what i had to do for myself, and i broke up with him.  i couldn't be myself, living in the shadow of someone that was so outgoing and out there.  we had evolved to be friends, much like we were before we started dating.  after that, his life took a turn down a path that was nothing like what anyone would have thought, but after years, he ended up back in a good place (i think).  he is with a girl now and i thought it would be a great time if we all could meet up for lunch or something. 

day after day passed and everytime there was something planned, things changed and we couldn't meet.  i began to see what was playing out.  in all honesty, in my head, i was just excited to get together with friends...in fact, i couldn't WAIT to get home to t.  there were no ulterior motives on my part, i guarantee you.  however, i did see the girlfriend's side of it and when it came down to the last day and she had dictated when i could have lunch with him (the last few minutes before i left on my flight), i just decided that i didn't want to be that person causing strife.  i told him that although she was saying it was o.k. that he see me for lunch....it wasn't really o.k.  it was better than him having dinner with an ex, yes, but it wasn't going to be o.k.  and it would cause problems with them.  he told me that she shouldn't be upset because she knew everything that went on in his life, she even checked his phone YIKES!  i told him that we should wait for a time when she could be there and see that my intentions were nothing of what she thought.  he was not at all happy, tried to get me to go, regardless....and i just wasn't going to be a pawn in the game that was going on.  i declined and went home! 

have never been so happy to get home....i mean, really happy.  i love life here and realized also how much i HATE conflict, because i just don't have it at home. 

i've been in bed for the past few days tho....i got home and got the weirdest experience...a fever without being sick.  haven't been going to work, as to not get my dad sick, so, i've just been taking it easy, hence the lack of blogging!

things are awesome...i'll post some tx pictures soon!