biggest loser...it needs to be me

i'm still in a funk. it's not that things are sad or depressing, but i've just not been feeling right lately. after last weeks events, (see fridays blog), i'm just still off kilter. then yesterday, t's girlfriend from high school wrote to him, some more weird stuff happened in the office...just enough stuff to make things "unsettled" in my head.

so, i decided that the perfect thing to do would be to go and work out....for three hours. i went to my usual spinning class for an hour, then prepared myself for the great event that only happens every once in a while....the finale of the biggest loser. This show is so inspirational to me, NOT AT ALL for the weight loss, but for the mental flowering that goes on during it. The girl who won, is who i would have chosen...there was a nasty lady on there too, that i literally would have cried if she had won. this girl was beaten down...her parents had divorced and her mother took the other kids and left her with her dad. she loved her dad, but still....her mom left her. she was devastated. she was ready to quit half way into the show, not because she couldn't do the physical, but she couldn't get past her mental roadblocks.

so, i sat on an elliptical machine and treadmill for 2 more hours while i watched this show. i am happy to say, all is back to normal and all is good. were most people watching me instead of their own TV's. Why? Well, every now and again, i would cheer out loud. t was embarrassed everytime i would yell. but oh well

Get rid of the roadblocks, people.