tainted?

i was married when i was 25. i think of this man often and send such good vibes his way. i hope that he is well. in fact, he is such a good person, i wish the very best for him.

anyway, so much went into that wedding. i cringe to think of it. i'm not a wedding person, although, i think that planning weddings would be amazing....for someone else. i'm not a traditional wedding person, and yet at the moment, we had to be traditional. not only did we have the million person party, but we had it at a wonderful historic hotel in Boulder, had a harpist, had a traditional dress, had a great time. we folded 1,001 silver origami cranes and painted a tree silver and hung them from the tree, it was beautiful. we had a bishop marry us in the catholic church where i went to school at growing up. it was perfect.

but, alas, things didn't work out, and like many people, i'm left with the dress. i love this picture of me in it, because i was trying to find angles to take my face out of it to sell it, but nothing seems to work. this just is funny to me. i've tried to sell this dress again and again and...nothing. i think that people believe that it's tainted. it's not...it's beautiful. would i wear it again or choose it if i had to do it over again, no, but i love looking at it. particularly of it on me with my faceless head. LOL