a little ditty

i got this from little pea, so thank you! it gives me something to write about when i don't have anything. well, yes, actually, i do, but this will be much more interesting, i would think.

1) What book has most touched your soul?- without a doubt, "the little price", hands down, no question, that is it. this does it for me because it's about human nature, the value of innocence, and the power of fidelity

however, that being clarified...i would say that every book that i read touches my soul. i do not finish reading something that i don't feel would be worth reading, so in that respect, it's hard to answer this.

But i did just read this book last night that i think is worth mention. wow, i would have a hard time with this, without saying that it was the last book that i read. I just read "The Memory of Running" by Ron McLarty. It was really a great book. It was fairly toned down from my usual taste. for some reason,i usually pick things that have some crazy surprise twist at the end. This book, to me, was exhausting to read. it had aspects about mental illness and hopelessness, which are exhausting concepts, i think. but, it ended up very much different than i had ever thought it would.


2) How do you think being a teenager today is different from when you were a teenager?-i think it is very different. and NO, it was not that long ago that i was a teenager. i think it is a much scarier time to be a parent right now. you can only control how you raise your kids, not the way that other people raise theirs and i think that right now, there is a much more prevalent "flippant" attitude with parenting....SCARY.



3) If you found out for sure there was no afterlife at all, would you change how you live your life?-i don't think i would change the way that i ran my life currently. it would definitely bug me though. one of my favorite things to do, is have a good friday night cry, watching john edward on the we network. i love the idea of people being able to "connect" with people...in life and in death. i don't know for a fact that it can happen, but the thought that it MIGHT, is good enough for me


4) What is the biggest regret of your life so far.

i don't have many. i wouldn't say this wide blanket statement of, "i wish i would have never met ______". but i will say, that i wish that i had been strong enough to leave him when it was very early in the relationship. there was a specific time that i had to go to the hospital for nothing more than a horrid kidney infection. it was not life threatening, i'm sure, but it was 2am and i was going to the hospital for the first time in my life. i called him. he was sleeping. he basically said: go and hope all is o.k. he had been up all night drinking wine with his roommate.

i kept wanting him to magically show up at the hospital and hang out with me while i was waiting in a cold room in a paper gown in the middle of a scuzzy part of Denver, but that did not happen.

when i got home and told him that i was home, he did not come over or call to find out himself. i called him. when i finally did see him that day, it was me who went over to his house. That is the day...i regret not getting out then.

another thing is that there are a couple times when i have done things or not done things, for my parents. i can think of two, but i wouldn't have done them now and will never do them again.