i'm on pins and needles

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or maybe more accurately, they are going to be on me soon. i'm going in today for the first out of hopefully only one treatment, of acupuncture. i'm so exctied, i can't wait.

but even more of what is making me excited is that in my head, i've already decided that it IS going to work.

yesterday, i took a drive to Vail to go see my parents. i took my new CD collection up with me and listened the whole way. i think i'm through disc 5 of 8 of it. there are some things that are great about it and somethings that are good. but i've not heard of anything that i thought that was not believeable about it.

it's all about using your mind to control your life. or more aptly, using your mind to not control, but to let things be. there are some things that are harder than others though to get through. i think probably the hardest things are the letting go of past problems. one of the most frustrating things to me, when i do it, or when someone else does it, is to contantly be involved in the same problem over and over again. i'm not talking things that are out of our control, but more the things that could be put to rest over a conversation. instead of talking about how many times you've been wronged by someone, why not, either, put that energy out of your life, or talk to them, and let them know the effect they are having. you are the only one that can change things, and you cannot change things in the past...only now.

the end all for me is when i hear the words from someone, "it's just not worth it". whether it be the effort it takes to do a task, or the effort that it would take to solve an issue, or just to have a conversation with someone. it IS worth, it , or you wouldn't be having the coversation about it that you are repeating over and over again. take the time to take care of the relationships, or just don't have them, i think is the harsh way to look at things. if someone is bothering you with words or actions, you are likely going to shy away anyway, to avoid hearing those things. why not take the time to approach the issue, and if it's unapproachable....at least know that. that is peace.